Day 9: I am going to be really boring in today's update and be totally honest nothing of note has happened in the last two days. I can confirm that the initial scare of being told Beth is pregnant has worn off and I can now sleep normally again. That does not mean that I am still not scared because I am, the hardest thing to work out now is money and the main problem is knowing how much money we need it seems like an impossible task to even estimate the cost of moving out and also having a baby at the same time. The reason that is so hard is because nobody seems to be able to help out in finding out what benefits we will get from the government, but I guess we will work it out in the end so it's not really worth stressing over just keep taking each day as it comes. Weird fact for the day though apparently, today was the hottest day in September for 50 years maybe it's a sign the end of the world is coming that could well be a possibility as well seen as Newcastle have just won 6-0 away from home.
Day 10: As I have just mentioned in the last day, not a lot has happened I went to work came home and watched some football nothing interesting at all to tell you about today, sorry. The weather has gone back to normal though it was freezing this morning and also my Mum and Dad came home from York after taking my sister so no Beth tonight :( .
Anyway that all for today's update talk to you all again soon
Wednesday 14 September 2016
Tuesday 13 September 2016
Great North Run Day 7 And 8
Day 7 so it's done all of that training over and the half marathon is complete, I complete the half marathon in 3 hours 8 minutes which is a bit slower than we wanted but I have said all along as long as I finish then I would be happy. It was so much harder than I ever expected but mainly because there is so many more hills than I expected but the feeling of crossing the line is one of the best feelings I have ever had knowing I had concurred something I always wanted to do and made about 150 pound for charity at the same time and to finish it with my Mum makes it even better . I will say though so want to do it again next year if I have time with the baby.
When all of that had finished we went back and had a bit of a party to celebrate but also to send Jemma (my sister) off as she is heading to York in the morning to start Uni. that was good fun but I had to go to bed early because I was so tired and I think my Mum went just after me as she was just as tired.
Day 8 Today had to be a rest day again after running so far I couldn't do anything but rest, we did go to the park with Beth's nephew but that was a disaster in itself as 10 minutes into playing he managed to get stung by a wasp and that was the end of that trip. When we dropped him back of though Beth's Mam Dot asked us something that really has to be thought about, instead of going to live close renting she has asked if we want to move me into her house and live there for a while. My instant reaction to that is no but with money being so tight it's something to think about. The rest of that day was literally sat on the sofa watching Breaking bad till 1 in the morning then off to bed for work this morning and actually when writing this on day 9 work starts in 20 minssoI best go.
I will write again as soon as I can Bye.
When all of that had finished we went back and had a bit of a party to celebrate but also to send Jemma (my sister) off as she is heading to York in the morning to start Uni. that was good fun but I had to go to bed early because I was so tired and I think my Mum went just after me as she was just as tired.
Day 8 Today had to be a rest day again after running so far I couldn't do anything but rest, we did go to the park with Beth's nephew but that was a disaster in itself as 10 minutes into playing he managed to get stung by a wasp and that was the end of that trip. When we dropped him back of though Beth's Mam Dot asked us something that really has to be thought about, instead of going to live close renting she has asked if we want to move me into her house and live there for a while. My instant reaction to that is no but with money being so tight it's something to think about. The rest of that day was literally sat on the sofa watching Breaking bad till 1 in the morning then off to bed for work this morning and actually when writing this on day 9 work starts in 20 minssoI best go.
I will write again as soon as I can Bye.
Sunday 11 September 2016
Day 5 and 6
Hey everyone so bits and bobs have happened in the last 2 days nothing serious other than starting to plan properly and having drinks with friends. So yesterday I woke up so much fresher it turns out spending the night with Beth relaxes me so much more than on my own, but that wasn't the main thing of the day the main thing was starting the plan which has now been called project life. So we have bought an A3 pad and have a list of everything we need for moving into a new flat but also everything for the baby. We also went to mother care to price up stuff we need I have probably said it loads in this blog but again it's so scary looking at everything.
On last night I got to relax for a bit, friends came round and I went through half a bottle of vodka but that's not a lot for me when I drink I drink a lot but I don't drink often. it help me not think about the baby for once and just have some me time playing drunken games like ring of fire. It isn't relevant to the baby stuff but I want to share my day to day stuff too oh and on a side note my friend since I was born laura now knows Beth is pregnant and she supports us :)
Today was a very relaxing day, I have the great north run tomorrow so today was all about doing nothing to be ready for my 21km run :O don't think I am ready but I have a long few months ahead I am going to and this run is going to be easy compared to my next fewyears. Sotodayhasbeen about eating pasta and not thinking about the baby until its all gone and on a side note my sister is leaving for uni on Monday so I have been asked not talk about the baby until that's done then we can talk about it more.
But that's it for today see you soon!
On last night I got to relax for a bit, friends came round and I went through half a bottle of vodka but that's not a lot for me when I drink I drink a lot but I don't drink often. it help me not think about the baby for once and just have some me time playing drunken games like ring of fire. It isn't relevant to the baby stuff but I want to share my day to day stuff too oh and on a side note my friend since I was born laura now knows Beth is pregnant and she supports us :)
Today was a very relaxing day, I have the great north run tomorrow so today was all about doing nothing to be ready for my 21km run :O don't think I am ready but I have a long few months ahead I am going to and this run is going to be easy compared to my next fewyears. Sotodayhasbeen about eating pasta and not thinking about the baby until its all gone and on a side note my sister is leaving for uni on Monday so I have been asked not talk about the baby until that's done then we can talk about it more.
But that's it for today see you soon!
Friday 9 September 2016
Day 4
So it turns out today I found out that my sleeping pattern is completely gone, even though I managed to sleep at a reasonably normal time once again I was minutes away from being lately sleeping in. The stress really seems to be getting to my energy levels. Other than that not a lot of things to talk about other than seeing Beth's mam for the first time and it turns out she didn;t shout and scream like I thought she would she just gave me a hug and said she would be there for us when it came to this which was a nice suprice.
I haven't mentioned this in the blog so far but I am going the great north run on Sunday which is a half marathon through Newcastle. I did my last training session with my running group today which turned out to be a nightmare the running was in but it was the time by myself that got me emotional especially running around the park where I took Beth on out first date and also the place where just twodaysagoI agreed to go stick with her through this, Basically it was a bad idea from the start and I had to leave early so that I didn't have to talk about it with anyone especially my auntie
I have stayed at Beth's tonight as well so I will update on how much that has happened my sleep but so far I have been so much more relaxed with her with me,and my stress levels have dropped a lot seen as we have managed to joke around alot. We talked about serious stuff like stuff we need and babies but I asked her to talk about that more tomorrow instead as I wanted time without serious stuff and she agreed.
I will update you again tomorrow but until then goodnight.
I haven't mentioned this in the blog so far but I am going the great north run on Sunday which is a half marathon through Newcastle. I did my last training session with my running group today which turned out to be a nightmare the running was in but it was the time by myself that got me emotional especially running around the park where I took Beth on out first date and also the place where just twodaysagoI agreed to go stick with her through this, Basically it was a bad idea from the start and I had to leave early so that I didn't have to talk about it with anyone especially my auntie
I have stayed at Beth's tonight as well so I will update on how much that has happened my sleep but so far I have been so much more relaxed with her with me,and my stress levels have dropped a lot seen as we have managed to joke around alot. We talked about serious stuff like stuff we need and babies but I asked her to talk about that more tomorrow instead as I wanted time without serious stuff and she agreed.
I will update you again tomorrow but until then goodnight.
Thursday 8 September 2016
The First Day Part 2
So I have just done a runner, my girlfriend who I love gave me that bomb shell and I knowI should have stayed and talked but I had to go. The first thought in my mind was to go see my friend to get some advice which I did he was the first person I told and he agreed with me on what should be done, but the best quote I will ever hear probably came from that conversation he told me "If I am lucky the baby might even have 2/3rds of my genes" because apparently if the baby is the same sex as you or looks more like you than your partner then that baby has 2/3rds of your genes and only 1/3rd of your partners. we chatted for a while whilst he worked on his car but he did his best to make me feel better but I knew he was just as shocked as I was.
The next person I told was my sister, I told her to meet me at the shop as I had some news, her instant reaction when I told her was that I was a dumb ass for letting it happen but also for running away I should be with Beth talking not talking to her. The conversation with her didn't really have anything of note in it other than her telling me not to worry it would all work out and I would be fine.
Finally the last person of the day to tell was my Dad and let's just say he didn't take it very well at all. He shouted and screamed the house down about how bad it was and how I won't cope I am too young etc... I didn't really have a lot I could say I just let him blow off his steam till the room was silent for a while and decided to go back to Beth to speak to her. I didn't blame my Dad for feeling like that he was in as much shock as I was and I know he will eventually come round as he has always been the more understanding parent.
The last part of this most hectic day was going back to talk to Beth I still couldn't face her mother but we went out instead on a short walk stopping to sit in the field next to the college, I have to admit sitting there I was the most scared even though I am still scared now that point there sitting next to her has been the most scary part of my life. I won't go into to much detail about what we were talking about as a lot of the conversation was very controversial about what we were going to do whether we would still be a couple or not and other things on top. our conversation didn't really get any were as we disagreed on a lot of the points but I know we will work on it and make this bad situation into something good, after that I went home and slept sound all night not a trouble sleeping at all I guess all of the drama and stress caught up to me and at that point I didn't want to believe it was real I wanted to go back to watching my youtube video when I didn't have a care in the world but that time has passed and I have to wake up to reality.
The next person I told was my sister, I told her to meet me at the shop as I had some news, her instant reaction when I told her was that I was a dumb ass for letting it happen but also for running away I should be with Beth talking not talking to her. The conversation with her didn't really have anything of note in it other than her telling me not to worry it would all work out and I would be fine.
Finally the last person of the day to tell was my Dad and let's just say he didn't take it very well at all. He shouted and screamed the house down about how bad it was and how I won't cope I am too young etc... I didn't really have a lot I could say I just let him blow off his steam till the room was silent for a while and decided to go back to Beth to speak to her. I didn't blame my Dad for feeling like that he was in as much shock as I was and I know he will eventually come round as he has always been the more understanding parent.
The last part of this most hectic day was going back to talk to Beth I still couldn't face her mother but we went out instead on a short walk stopping to sit in the field next to the college, I have to admit sitting there I was the most scared even though I am still scared now that point there sitting next to her has been the most scary part of my life. I won't go into to much detail about what we were talking about as a lot of the conversation was very controversial about what we were going to do whether we would still be a couple or not and other things on top. our conversation didn't really get any were as we disagreed on a lot of the points but I know we will work on it and make this bad situation into something good, after that I went home and slept sound all night not a trouble sleeping at all I guess all of the drama and stress caught up to me and at that point I didn't want to believe it was real I wanted to go back to watching my youtube video when I didn't have a care in the world but that time has passed and I have to wake up to reality.
Wednesday 7 September 2016
Day 3
Today has been an ordinary day but you might have guessed by my late night post (if you didn't see it I posted at 5am to say I couldn't sleep) I was almost late for work, my alarm went off, all 3 of them but I fell asleep after each one went.I was only saved by dad knocking my door 20 minutes before work asking why I hadn't gone, lucky by doing that it woke me up fully and got me to work on time by 1 minute.
After getting back from work all I did tonight was spend time relaxing playing Fifa on the Xbox, its the first time day I haven't seen Beth at all since I was told but I don't think that has made to much of a difference as we have still spoke about stuff on the phone such as prams and surprisingly she lost 5 lb at slimming world. But she has now told her Sister she is pregnant I have no idea what her reaction was but it's just another reason to avoid her family for a bit longer,I just can't face the questioning. The only other thing she told me about is a pram she has seen but it's 600 pound!!! I'm trying to talk her into looking cheaper but we will see because in fairness it does look very posh I will put the picture at the bottom of the article.
That's all for today's update I will try to get my first two days wrote up as soon as possible as they have much more exciting things to talk about but until tomorrow good night :) ( hopefully I can get some sleep tonight )
After getting back from work all I did tonight was spend time relaxing playing Fifa on the Xbox, its the first time day I haven't seen Beth at all since I was told but I don't think that has made to much of a difference as we have still spoke about stuff on the phone such as prams and surprisingly she lost 5 lb at slimming world. But she has now told her Sister she is pregnant I have no idea what her reaction was but it's just another reason to avoid her family for a bit longer,I just can't face the questioning. The only other thing she told me about is a pram she has seen but it's 600 pound!!! I'm trying to talk her into looking cheaper but we will see because in fairness it does look very posh I will put the picture at the bottom of the article.
That's all for today's update I will try to get my first two days wrote up as soon as possible as they have much more exciting things to talk about but until tomorrow good night :) ( hopefully I can get some sleep tonight )
5am
Just a quick update from 5am day 3. I will still cover the rest of day1 and 2 but its now 5am day 3 and I haven't slept at all I have work at 9 but I can't stop thinking about the fact I am having a baby.....SHIT
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